(This is my summer dress I had planned to wear to the Reunion!!)
Ever have one of those weeks when you just wanted to climb in bed & pull the covers over your head & hide??
Well, that is this week for me!!
As some of you who are following me already know, my 50th High School Reunion is this Saturday. Something that I am struggling with, NOT because it is the 50th, NO, because it is HIGH SCHOOL!! Now you would think a 60+-year-old woman would not be intimidated by some old schoolmates, right?? WRONG!!
I am going through all those same immature, self-sabotaging feelings all over again!! AND…..it is just NOT true, I HAVE changed!!
Change is something we all go through as we age & mature, but sometimes situations bring all those old feelings back to the surface!!
This does NOT mean that they are true!!
It can be very hard & very intimidating to face those feelings!! It can help a great deal to have a support person that can accurately remind you that you are NOT that person anymore….that you have grown & matured & are just as good as anyone at that stupid reunion!! (This is where I laugh to myself because no matter how rational the argument is, I am still right back there in high school in my brain!!)
If you have to face some sort of situation with someone who intimidates you……they may even relish in intimidating you because this makes them feel better about themselves….find someone who knows you who can support you!!
I have someone that I may not have known for years & years but I consider her a very dear friend!! She has been so supportive of me as I go through this process!! I find that it is easy for me to help others through this sort of situation, but it is SO DIFFICULT for me!!
Isn’t that always how it is, though?? It is always easier to help someone else that to help ourselves!!
I realize that this is not my usual blog post, but I have to be honest with myself & you about how hard Change can be!! It is NOT easy & sometimes it hurts….a lot!! BUT, IF we can face the reality of our situation & grasp onto that one positive thing that is hiding there, we can come through the Change with grace & usually unscathed!!
What situation or fear or Change are you facing that you would rather avoid altogether?? What are you going to do??
I want to go to the reunion, but I honestly don’t know if I am strong enough at this point in time to face it!! I won’t know what I will do until the last minute!! But….I will let you know all about it next week!!
I would love to hear your thoughts & comments & any struggles that you may be going through!! Just send me an email or post it in the comments below!!
I hope your week is outstanding!!!!